Perhaps it isn’t ours to fix at all, but ours to welcome, embrace, accept, understand, lean into, learn from, allow.Īnd, none of this is because ease isn’t available. Perhaps this isn’t because I’m out of alignment, or not approaching it correctly, or doing it wrong - perhaps it isn’t because I haven’t made the proper initiations or moved through all the rites of passage in the correct order perhaps this just means being a person is a lot more complex and complicated than those trying to sell us constant ease and tidiness want us to believe. What is meant for me will not always be easy and effortless what’s important isn’t always neat. ![]() Sometimes it feels out of reach, even when it’s right here. Sometimes, what is meant for me causes doubt and hesitancy, circling thoughts and shallow breathing. ![]() Sometimes, what is meant for me takes a lot longer than I wish it did, and feels more like crashing into a breaking wave, salty water in my nose and everything, than floating on a serene lake. Sometimes it pokes and prods - it doesn’t always soothe and satiate. ![]() Sometimes it’s a long slog instead of a smooth ride. What’s meant for us won’t always be easy, effortless, natural, neat. Yet I know from experience that something being meant for us - something being important - doesn’t mean it won’t contain a mess to move through. And when I hear the manifestation babes telling me what’s meant for us will be easy and effortless, I look at what I’m called to and question it instead of questioning the idea that the truest things must contain ease. I’m in the middle of something that feels important to me - something that feels necessary and right, like the truest thing I could move toward during this season of my life. We revere stories of making it through to the “other side” yet turn away from (in others and ourselves) the murky bits, the middle of the night worries, the months and years spent desperate for something different. We see people continuously presenting themselves as having made it, only to present the same thing a year later in a different way, revealing they hadn’t actually made it. We assume we’re the messed up ones if our behind-the-scenes secrets and processes and next steps don’t look as clear-cut and set in stone as they seem to for “everyone else”. We think the sign of readiness is a lack of tangle, a lack of messiness. We think we, and life, are supposed to be neat and tidy, organized and ready for the photo-op. I’ve spent a lot of time forgetting what’s important - and a lot of time forgetting that what’s important lacks a certain neatness. I’ve found myself in places where I would have done anything to make it all stop - all the wondering and striving, all the pressure and expectation, all the trying to be somewhere else, all the living. I’ve been told to control nature, mine included, instead of learn from and listen to it. I’ve spent countless hours longing for the answers instead of learning to live the questions, craving the ending instead of moving through the mysterious plot. I’ve been taught to strive for neatness: for clarity, for knowing, for linear, for the 1-2-3 progression of everything, for the clean lines and clear Before and Afters and overcomings and I’m-Past-That, for the plan and the schedule and the has-it-all-together. My eyes water every time I read it, like right now - the screen just became blurry - because it is an obvious truth I’ve been trying to accept my whole life, yet one I often fight against. Mary Oliver said this in her poem The Bleeding-Heart and it’s a line I’ve been returning to a lot lately. ![]() Religion and electromagnetic waves - visible, audible, idealĬausing real reactions in earth-time (real as it gets).“Most things that are important, have you noticed, lack a certain neatness.” In terms of amplitude, wavelength, frequency and speed. Oscillating at right angles to each otherĪnd to the direction of motion of the wave. Religion both existed and flourished, not only without the support of human laws, but in spite of every opposition from them, and not only during the period of miraculous aid but long after it had been left to its own evidence and the ordinary care of Providence.Įlectromagnetic waves consist of electric and magnetic fields Madison's defense of the establishment clause to the Virginia
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